Sentimental Meaning

Today, I was driving on my deliveries, and I thought of something that is a worthy counter point to my logical and analytical approach to things, lately.  First, I must say that my focus on reason and logic has been and is a steady influence in the face of a lot of disorder and things that could cause fear, if it was allowed.  So, I am grateful for the reasoned approach and will let it continue to guide my decision making for the most part.  That said, there is a counter point to be said that is true in its own right.

As I was driving, I was enjoying looking around at the building and more that I have seen for a long time, prior to returning, here.  It's not just the memories.  It's familiarity and a personal connection to those roads and places and such.  But, as I was driving and looking, it occurred to me that if you DIDN'T have the memories and my preferences and more, it could just be seen as a run down city in places and a building that I think has quaint charm could be seen as just... an old building.  

I haven't been watching the new Dr Who season, as I feel it has betrayed many canons of traditional Dr Who show and more, but I have kept up with reading the plots of the shows from time to time.  One of the most recent episodes has the Dr saying that someone has meaning because we believe they have meaning.  WE give them meaning by our choice to ascribe it to them.  I can apply that, here.  The city has a LOT of meaning to me, even though at the core it's just... a city.  A job is just a job.  A person is just a biological human.  Etc.  The mechanics of truth is bare and cold in a large part.  You can look at a sunset and just talk about the process of how the light is made and our eyes receive it.  Or... you can say what a pretty sunset it is and relax in the assessment.

I do believe there is a truth to this and a purpose for it in things like romance, too.  I have a long experience of giving meaning to such that was overlooked, misunderstood, or rejected by others that were calculating on value based on things that were really just excuses for someone looking for an out.  However, a rose is not just a rose, if it is given with meaning.  A touch.  A hug.  A smile.  All of these can be attributed to the mechanics of doing it, but MEANING has very little to do with procedure.

I do NOT want this to be used to overlook toxic conditions or to paint rosey pictures where non such exists, but I do think a bleak boil down to fact and evidence can indeed miss the point of living.  Sometimes, you just have to let yourself pretend and find meaning in your days, even when things are not there.  It can be the fuel to help you create more of that in your day to day life and in the lives of others.  And, if someone IS living a little pretense or even truth to them, such as trans people or more.  Why not let them live it, in a world that may be dark for them living the way others would have them live.  Thought that is worth noting in this LGBTQ month.